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Listening: Cradle of Filth - Nymphetamine


Something isn't right here....

When you break up with someone, you are supposed to feel one of two things.

A - You feel incredibly angry at the person, then proceed to stomp up to your room and throw on Godsmack/Slipknot/Cradle of Filth/whatever while you rip up pictures and break things and scream.

B - You feel crushed and broken, and spend hours alone sobbing and gorging yourself on Ben and Jerry's, pouring over old notes, and watching romantic old movies to torture yourself.

That's what you're supposed to feel anyways...

Today though, I found out that there's another possibility.

C - I feel amazingly calm. I never imagined that things could go this well. Ben and I both agreed that this was for the best, and we were actually laughing and getting off the subject while we were trying to break up!! Overall, we both just feel really good about this and want each other to be happy. We ended the conversation with a smile.

I'm shocked, to say the least. I always imagined my first break-up would leave me crying and screaming. Instead though, I feel like this is the right time for this, and that we'll both be happier this way. I'm so thankful that things ended the way they did.